Umber (19.42 — Vera’s Story)

April 23, 2012 § 2 Comments

 More time passed.  I was nearing the end of my senior year in high school.  Alfred had started to crawl.  Kate was sure I was going through an adolescent phase, and that I would soon recover from my temporary obsession with St. Agnes’.  I did not recover, however.  I could not stay away from the sights, sound, and smells that all reminded me of my mother’s world.  So many times I resolved to find the courage to tell Papa that I had, by this time, been receiving the sacraments in a church he didn’t approve of, but for months I found excuse after excuse to put off the day of reckoning.  I wanted to believe that I was brave enough to face the upheaval that would surely follow when I finally spilled the beans, but I was, in fact, spineless.  I cringed at the thought of their righteous anger.  I loathed my dishonesty and cowardice almost as much as I loved my new identity as a Catholic.


§ 2 Responses to Umber (19.42 — Vera’s Story)

  • I can relate to that spinelessness. There were important things I never told my parents. I can also relate to the fascination with the “spiritual”…

    Don’t know if you are getting any of the comments I make on here. I don’t want to put them on Facebook.

    We should get together over tea sometime…

  • Yes, tea would be good. Do you get up our way often?

    I’m not sure how many comments you’ve sent, but I always reply…so if you’ve sent one and I didn’t reply, then it didn’t get here. I love your comments, by the way!

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